Karen & Chris
Desoto, Missouri
"My husband and I married in 2011. I soon found that Chris was addicted to cigarettes, alcohol, weed and pornography. He was codependent with his mother, narcissistic, jealous and controlling. I thought I could fix him! I put two years of time and effort into Chris and his son, neglecting my own family in the process. He made great progress but it wasn't enough for me. I became controlling and hateful without realizing it. In 2014, I kicked Chris out and filed for divorce. As soon as it was finalized I started dating anyone and everyone, trying to heal my pain. God gave me a wake-up call, I repented and we remarried six months later. I found that his problems had worsened. I was miserable but every time I started to kick him out again, God stopped me. In March 2019, I started begging God to remove him and He did. A month later, God told me to put my wedding ring back on. He then had a complete stranger from another state call me and explain "standing" to me. I read The Bait of Satan by John Bevere and realized I had never forgiven my husband even though I said I had. I forgave him. I read Pigs in the Parlor by Frank and Ida Mae Hammond and watched Nelson Schuman's deliverance videos on You Tube. I learned of my own need for deliverance and was delivered. I learned to get my self-worth from only God because no one else can fill the holes in our hearts. After ten months of no contact, my husband texted me and God said it was a cloud the size of a man's hand. He moved home in March of 2020, worse than ever. His time in the far country had almost cost him his life and he was weak, sick and still addicted, but I was different! I let God's love for him show through me. Little by little, Chris is being delivered. We are able to have respectful conversations, be kind to each other even when disagreeing, keep God in the center of our marriage and enjoy loving the spouse that we know God joined us to. He has laid down one addiction after another and we are closer than we've ever been. He told me that while we were apart, he missed me and would park near our house just to get a glimpse of me. God has blessed us with new experiences (such as becoming grandparents) that strengthen our bond and bring us joy. We are enjoying growing old (er) together and fulfilling our vows to God and each other. If you are standing, don't give up! Like the old song says, "It's gonna be worth it all, some beautiful, happy day."'
